LEAD ... FOLLOW ... GET OUT OF MY WAY!
If you have ever gone through a really difficult trial, or if you are going through one now, one of the hardest things about it can be feeling like you are going through it all by yourself, and that is exactly how I felt yesterday! Not because people don't care, but rather because we are all so wrapped up in our own lives that unless the person in need is right in front of us, they are usually not even on our radar.
Right now there are things happening within my body that are leaving me tired, weak and in pain. And, while I have seen a doctor who has put me on a protocol designed to help me with all of the issues that need to be addressed, after having two really great days a few weeks ago, I now feel worse than I did before I saw her! On top of that, I don't know when I am going to feel better -- or if I will ever feel better.
I don't know when the pain and inflammation in my joints and connective tissue will be gone -- or if it will ever be gone.
I don't when I will have enough energy to simply make it through the day without laying down -- or if I will ever have that kind of energy again.
I don't know if I will ever have the lung capacity I once had to swim, ride horses, play my flute or sing -- or if I will ever be able to do those things again.
On top of that, it is hard to feel this lousy all the time without being near my parents. And while I do have some friends out here, they are all married with families and busy lives of their own.
For the needy will not always be forgotten, Nor the hope of the afflicted perish forever.
~ Psalm 9:18
This morning I read this verse in the book of Psalms, and as I thought it through, it gave me hope to know that my life will not always be like this!
While I know that God brought me to Montana in order to do some work in my life that He wanted to do out here (specifically), I am often very lonely. BUT ... I will not always be lonely! And, although I spend a great deal of time alone, I will not always be alone. And, while I feel like I am going through this trial with my health alone (and the truth of the matter is that I am -- it's my health), it will not always be like this.
Yes, I feel that way now. And because I am single, and because I live far away from my family and close friends, I may always feel that way while I live in this body on this side of Heaven. But it won't be like this forever!
I will not always be forgotten ... and neither will you.
My hope will not perish ... and neither will yours!
Because here is what God promises to us, if we will just cling to His Word and seek His face always:
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You,
For You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.
~ Psalm 9:10
Amen, Lord ... Amen!